Burnt out

22F 175lbs 5’5”

Im finally starting to show some progress. I’ve been strict on eating between 1500-1800cal per day for almost a month but I’m feeling SO burnt out.

I’m used to eating whenever I want, with next to no working out all the time. I never wore my weight bad - mostly in my butt. But now that I’m 5 months postpartum and it’s more in stomach than I’m used to and I hate it so much. I did a complete 180 and now workout nearly every day with strict calorie counting.

Im tired of cooking, weighing out everything and putting into my calorie tracker. My body is sore from workouts. I do eat somewhat regular meals, but do keep on the healthier side so I can try to get more food in me for less calories. But I’m getting very tired and drained of it. I don’t know what to do.

All I’m fixated on lately is binging. Eating a f*ck ton of junk food. McDonald’s, going to a seafood boil, fast food pizza…. Those are the ones most on my mind but everything is.

Im a recovering addict, and I know I’ve made some progress now but it’s so incredibly slow than what I was losing as a druggie. Sometimes I want to just use drugs again and lose a bunch of weight that way (I know it won’t stay, but at least I can eat whatever I want for a bit until I gain weight again) but then I’ll be right back where I am now.