2 months sober next week and cravings are out of control.

2 months is the longest I've gone sober basically ever (since I stared chronically using 10 years ago). This will be my third time hitting the 2-month milestone in the past year, but I relapsed at 2-months the other two times I quit. I really want to make it over this hump.

I've noticed a lot of anxiety lately and strong cravings to smoke since the new year. I feel like I have a lot of really big repressed feelings right now and I'm trying to get them out in healthy ways, but I feel so out of control and hopeless about the world. It makes me want to numb myself so badly. I'm trying to focus on the things I can control (such as my sobriety), but I feel so dismal about the future. It's hard to see past that feeling, and even harder to fight the strong urge to numb it.

I could really use some support or words of encouragement please