what do people who have absolutely no friends do?

I have literally no one. Even my family, I'm not close with them. I have no luck with making friends. I think I'm just boring asf because I can meet someone new, we start texting a lot and I get excited thinking I finally have a friend then they suddenly stop talking to me unless I reach out first. I have been living like this for the past 3 years and it's so tiring I don't think I can do it anymore. I can't just go out and make friends I have social anxiety and im so awkward. I don't even need tips on how to make friends because I never will keep a friend I just need tips on how to find solace in this stupid life