will i ever get a bf my age

i feel like ive been groomed so many times that idek if its possible for me to form meaningful relationships w people my own age anymore

and i mean would any boy even want to date me?? i have the constant idea in my head that once they find out about my sexual abuse history theyll probably just be disgusted or something and leave

plus it just feels easier to get into relationships w older guys. like no boy my age will ever fall for me that quick yk