How do I shut out my loneliness from distracting me?

25M. Trying to juggle the gym, corporate world and college at night. Hoping to get my degree in 2+ years and start over in another country. Feel really depressed and lonesome from my dead social life.

On the surface things are great. My grades improved, my gym work occasionally gets stares in public from the fairer sex and I’m really good at entertaining my co-workers with jokes and puns. But I have a gaping hole inside me.

I can’t date or have friends because of time and I feel an immense sense of guilt if I end up having to pick between my desire to leave the country and my friends and love interest. I also feel extremely selfish if my partner ends up following me overseas because it would mean giving up her social and family life. it’s probably for the best if less people remember or care about me.

Sometimes the thoughts distract me and depress me and I can’t concentrate because nothing I do is a true replacement for friendship or love. Not close with my family either. Lately been missing my alarms. Sometimes the bed and blanket are the only source of warmth and safety I have.

How do I shut it out?