Is it wrong that I still identify with womanhood?
TW because I know some people get very dysphoric about discussing being raised as a girl and being viewed as a girl. I’ve been out as FtM since middle school, so I’ve been socially transitioning for 6 or 7 years. All of my friends see me as a man and I have a lot of stereotypically masculine personality traits and hobbies (FPS video games, Star Wars fanatic, read comic books, making unfunny “boy humor” jokes, etc.). However, I still heavily identify with my womanhood and whenever people say that since I’m a transman I can’t understand being a woman or what women go through, it lowkey makes me feel invalidated in my identity. I know a lot of trans guys would disagree and obvi that’s fine, but I feel like personally, I do understand the woman experience more because I’m FtM. A lot of ciswomen get labelled as transphobic for saying that they appreciate how transmen can empathize more because of their upbringing. Many transmen prefer to be discluded from woman spaces, which again, is completely fine to not identify at all with being a woman or being in woman spaces. However, like, I grew up being treated as a girl and getting societal standards for women thrown upon me, and to this day many people including my family and some strangers still see me and treat me as a woman. Hence, I still kind of identify with women in a lot of ways and feel like my womanhood is an important part of me. But it’s also not like I’m like not 100% a man, because I totally am. I do not identify at all as non-binary. Like, I still face misogyny and shit because I don’t pass all the time (really only 40-50% of the time to strangers) and to some who know I’m trans, I’m a “mentally ill woman”. Does anyone else feel this way? Is this an instance of like internalized transphobia or misogyny or something? I also don’t want to sound like I’m invalidating anyone’s dysphoria or views on what is acceptable behavior from cis people. I’m just genuinely curious because I feel like I don’t see many people having the same view of their identity as me.