Wish I could just disappear

I wore a crop top today and my mom lost it. Anyone else just wish they could sleep forever like I don’t wanna die I just have no desire to live or do anything I have no passions I just wish I could live freely without this Islam stuff. So tired of existing in this life. Not allowed to show my legs or wear crops or anything, where I live it’s 110 degrees plus. It’s miserable, I could be out doing drugs or harming people but my mom flips over me wearing a cropped shirt