Could use some encouragement

Hey reddit frens, i am 15, and i am in the process of leaving, at least i like to think so. i got over the hump of telling the believing portion of my family (my parents) but i get the feeling that i kinda want to turn back, to be. able to leave all of this info i have found... i have struggled with depression for a year or two and this certainly hasn't helped. i have been trying for so long, beginning of my of 2023 or 2024 idk with alyssa grenfels stuff. i still go to church bc my parents make me so i am doing it for them because they care about me and the belief in it and the other typical mormon stuff, i have an escape plan. i just need some gentle encouragement/advice if you get the chance. thanks