Feeling overwhelmed

I’m feeling really overwhelmed. Let me sum up my situation: I’m 51, married, and have three kids. I was a ministerial servant for almost 10 years, but I’ve been PIMO for about 5 years now. I stopped being a servant because I gradually reduced my activities in the congregation to the point of nearly stopping altogether. My oldest son isn’t baptized, but my two younger kids are baptized and old enough to be ministerial servants.

The elders are pressuring me, trying to schedule a meeting because they want me and my sons to become ministerial servants. My wife is also constantly saying I need to set an example for the boys. It’s becoming unbearable. I’ve expressed some of my disagreements with the organization to her, but I haven’t fully opened up. I’m sure if I did, she’d run straight to the elders to tell them.

I feel like I’m constantly on edge, friends, and it’s getting more and more stressful dealing with this constant pressure. Anyway, I just needed to vent—thanks.