Christmas drinking
Reasons for:
Im alone, might as well
I came to the conclusion that as a human being I am totally ruined without any hope that anything would get better from this point.
I don't have to work the next day
I feel like it
I can't feel any worse (I mean I can but hyperbolically speaking)
The idea of New Year coming soon strengthens my desire to fuck all and then say Ill start again, though nothing really gets reset
Reasons against:
I have some attack of hypochondria lately I constantly think I'm dying for really no good reason so it will really add to it
I'll probably get really depressed
I've been drinking more recently, and I think it's fucking up my skin quality which irritates me. In general I look sick and like shit I don't know what the fuck is happening there.
I symultaneously feel really suicidal and really scared of death, I'd really like to stop thinking about death in general, I can't seem to get past that point.