Existential Crisis !!! I have everything but still feel constantly confused and afraid of this life.

I am almost 33 years old and earn around 40+ LPA which is pretty decent as per me, although Gurgaon is an expensive place. I have a loving beautiful wife who is also very intelligent and doing pretty well in her field. I recently bought a house/floor in the city. By God’s grace, I don’t have much health issues as well as of now. My parents live in my hometown which is in some other state but I visit them once a month and try to spend good time with them too. I have got siblings and nephews and nieces who love me a lot and we are in constant touch as well. I have a few friends who check up on me on a regular basis too though I don’t get to spend too much time with them being in different cities and countries, yet we do connect once twice a month and talk our hearts out.

My manager used to say that couple years back and during Covid that I am a person who kept the morale of the multiple teams approx 25-30 with my silly jokes and other engagements. My colleagues and friends also enjoy my witty banter and other things.

All of this is good but since approx 1.5 or 2 years, I am constantly sad in some corner of my heart and I am always afraid that something bad will happen to me or my loved ones. I get very very tensed when there is smallest of an issue or problem (especially medical concerns) to anyone who is close to me. It is hard to see my parents become old and unwell.

I am a little bit stagnant in my job for sometime but work life balance is good as of now. A little bit of micromanagement has started happening lately but nothing which is beyond limits and/or doesn’t happen in other MNCs. I started working out as well on a regular basis at least 5 days a week. I feel a little better after starting that but still I am not able to get out of a constant feeling of fear/negativity. I am also not able to keep myself motivated to enjoy my life to fullest.

I keep asking myself what is the purpose of this life when everything is going to end someday and /or it might happen anytime.

I am not sure if someone has even read this till here or anything even makes sense but I am immensely exhausted feeling like this !!! Please help.