Update: solo concert experience

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I (48 F) went to the concert by myself last night. I’m glad I did it, but I probably won’t do it again.

I did feel awkward being alone, but I knew that nobody was paying any attention to my being there by myself. I busied myself with my phone and some people watching. It was an extremely diverse crowd! But it was extremely cold waiting in the line outside with imminent rain as a foreboding presence. They didn’t open the doors until an hour after it was supposed to start because of “technical difficulties.”

I think maybe I don’t really like concerts. It was a general admission and standing event. Even being by myself, I couldn’t find a place where I had an unobstructed view of the stage. When I thought I’d found a decent, partially unobstructed view, someone would return from the bar or restroom and be completely oblivious to the people behind them.

When the opening artist came out (Rozzi, she was all I cared about seeing), most of the audience didn’t know her or her songs and it didn’t have that vibe of the crowd all singing her songs along with her. I get that she wasn’t the headliner, but I didn’t anticipate that impacting the whole concert experience.

She did her set and I enjoyed her performance as much as I could, but there were so many people in front of me it definitely took away from my enjoyment.

I ended up leaving after her set because of the delayed concert start time. It was pretty late for me on a school night, not to mention the storm had started and was only going to get worse the longer I stayed.

I had some real insight into why it might be so hard for me to enjoy myself and have fun by myself. Part of it coming from accepting that I am probably more depressed than I have admitted to myself. In addition, I feel like I’ve done so much “work” on myself and am ready for a relationship and that has weighed heavily on me.

But I wanted to give everyone here an update. I am so grateful for the overwhelming encouragement from the comments I received on here. It was unexpected but so very much appreciated.