life doesn't excite me anymore

Life is so boring... tried many things in life. Studied hard, worked hard, partied hard, had good food, hobbies, tried so many things that at this point of time, just don't feel the excitement and expectation of anything anymore.

Perhaps being a father changed this. Unable to have own time. Being tied to wife and kid. The two most frequent places are office and home. Lost interest with my job. Some days I wish I'm rich and single that I can just spend time doing drugs and having companies of other girls. Of course that's just fantasy. Honestly the good high from drugs are one of the best things that ever happened to me.

Life didn't turn out to be what I expected and the old days were so much better. I need to start a project or focus on a hobby, otherwise I don't feel alive anymore and I will be miserable hating my life.