Convo with my wife

Me: I'ma get back on my meds, I've been off them for almost 3 weeks and Im pretty sure Im hypomanic and am beginning to struggle with it. Will you help me adhere to a regiment? Wife: I didn't know you were off your meds. Me: oh yeah, way off. Wife: can I tell you something? I just had the thought that youve been really nice to be around the last couple weeks. You haven't been sleeping all the time, you have energy and want to do things, you've been helpful around the house and engaged with our daughter etc.

I have some thoughts. 1. I guess that's kind of validating and gets rid of any doubt I've had about actually being bipolar since she saw my hypomanic symptoms (just didn't recognize them as such) before I did. But 2. Makes me feel bad that I'm a drag when Im medicated. Like I KNOW im way more fun unmedicated lol but what she doesn't see is the downside to hypo like the irritability, anger, agitation, hypersexuality. I wish we could be hypo without the bad stuff.