Recently diagnosed—lots of feelings.

Just as the title says. I’m sure this post happens a lot, I’m just a mixture of emotions. I knew it was coming, but it still felt like a sucker punch. I feel oddly validated, but so...scared for the future. What will happen. Things about me that always felt different make sense, but now I feel even more different. I know for sure I definitely need to stop drinking with the new medication I’ll be starting but that feels so hard. It was my (albeit negative) coping skill when I was in my low states. I guess I’m just rambling, there’s not much anyone can do. Just feeling off, I guess.