Had episiotomy without my consent 2 weeks ago and I’m miserable

I had a VBAC two weeks ago, from start of labor to giving birth only took 8 hours. I didn’t have a hard time pushing, it was probably only took like 5-10 minutes max. But the doctor didn’t even ask me she just cut my vagina without even giving me pain medication.

I didn’t have epidural or any other pain medication so I felt it when she fucking cut my vagina with a big scissor.

During my contractions I had signed some papers in another language cause I gave birth abroad and don’t speak the language. I felt blindsided, maybe I signed episiotomy consent without knowing? But I was in pain from active labor contractions and didn’t get to use my translator app.

Now two weeks later I’m still miserable. Sitting hurts, every time I pee I feel pain and bruising in my urethra (maybe because of catheter. I had catheter for a short time before pushing), I’m pretty sure I have anal fissure too because every time I poop it hurts SO bad despite me not having constipation.

The stitches feel so weird, I feel hypertrophic scar/bumpy scar along my vagina where the doctor cut and stitched me. She also somehow stitched near my asshole which was weird cause I didn’t even tear there.

I feel like the doctor just hated me and wanted to ruin my life.

This will be my last baby for sure but had I known about this BS I would’ve chosen a repeat c-section cause at least I would be able to have sex in the future. I’m honestly terrified of having sex from now on. I don’t think I’ll ever heal right cause I can’t even sit properly without both my vulva and anus hurting.

I feel broken tbh.

Edit: thank you so much for your replies and advice, I’m going to try all of your advice❤️