440lbs, just joined the gym

Look, I have always been fat, and always will be. But damn this is too much. I am at the end of my seat belt. Steering wheel touches my belly. Chairs with arms are painful.

Joined the gym 4 days ago, have gone every day so far. Tried to sit in the exercise bike and learned I have lost the ability to lift and bend my knee to get it on the pedal. That was so devastating. Can't even get into the bike. Went into the bathroom crying. My legs are so fat they are too heavy to lift that far with my belly also in the way. My leg fat prevents my knees from bending that far. It was impossible. Ridiculous.

For 2 days I went again and avoided the cardio machines, just did weight lifting machines. I am only spending a half hour to 45 minutes there.

Today I braved the eliptical. I was only able to go for a minute and a half before I needed to rest. I did this until I reached 5 minutes pedaling, probably spent equal time resting. Man this is so discouraging.

Just feeling terribly out of place at the gym.

Working on my diet.

Weighed myself and have lost a few lbs.

This is rough, just looking for if advise or if anyone else can relate. Thanks