My bf keeps on insisting me to have unprotected sex with him, I felt uncomfortable
Apologies in advance cause English is not my first language.
Just sharing some background story. I foolishly trusted my ex BF and have my first unprotected sex with him, then he dumped me once he had spreaded HPV warts to me few years ago. I've been through hell for years (surgery, vaccine and stuffs) to get it treated for it to be totally dissappear, and which I aware that it still have the risk of spreading it even though many years had passed. So I decided not to have any unprotected sex ever since.
Now back to many years passed I had met this guy that is wonderful, caring, sweet, and we shared alot in commons. Everything is perfect until he kept on complaining he felt that he "couldn't enjoyed himself" to wore condom during sex. I had shared with him my situation and past relationship with him multiple times before, and seems like he's really understand until he kept on brought it to me occasionally. I did not know if he's joking or serious most of the time until everytime our discussions get heated. I do mentioned to him I'll never agreed to it cause I want to protise my own and also his health. I even threatened that I'll end this relationship with him if he kept on insisting on it. Then seems like he will took a step back, until he brought this up few day after. And we always seems like fell into this endless loops of this discussion. Honestly I felt it's draining me and even affected my mood to function properly during my daily life and job.
I'm now in this dilemma that whether I should end this relationship with him because of this matter. But I think it will really hurt me the most because he's really felt like a perfect match for me and I don't ever think I'll meet other guy like him in this lifetime. However, I still want to be kinder to myself, which I don't want to make the same mistake again and hurts other too.
That's it for my sharing, and I'll appreciate any kind of advices. Hope that anyone can give some advices of what should I do in this situation.