Giving up

Also I know this has nothing to do with being gay but I’m gay so fuck you! Do any of you feel like you are too good for this world. my CEO at my corporate job constantly makes passive aggressive digs about me and Oop sorry if I can’t help but give a vibe that I don’t like you. I’m a genuine person i physically can’t just say fake nice things with a straight face. Like obviously if you have nothing nice to say don’t say anything. But I still rub people the wrong way. Idk what’s up with it. I’m just feel like I’m destined to be a failure. I get I’m just a fucking snowflake or whatever. But I just wanna be done. Like is there a program where you can travel for a year and then donate all your organs and die.