Is douching causing me bowel issues?

So for context I’m not a bottom, I’m a top. Mid twenties. I rarely let anyone or anything into my ass. But I have developed a habit of douching my hole almost every single day. I don’t use a large amount of water, I’m not irrigating my bowels for anal sex. I just really like the feeling of having a clean ass and knowing I am as empty as possible. This is usually after I take my daily dump.

I originally started douching as a way to clean because I was encountering the classic “endless wipe” scenario, wasting a lot of time and toilet paper ultimately just to feel shitty (pun intended) and like my rectum wasn’t fully empty. I may be a bit neurotic, but I don’t like this feeling at all. I’m the same way with washing my hands, I hate feeling oily or sticky textures and can’t stand when they’re dirty. My hands have become extremely dry and cracked because of this.

My main issue is that I really have a hard time “holding in” my bowel movements, it’s not that I can’t do it, it’s that I don’t like the feeling of having to shit. But when I do my stools are soft and I feel the need to shower and douche. I’m scared this is an endless cycle and I’ll never be able to shit in a scenario where I don’t have access to water and other things I have in my home to help me. Recently I was staying at a relatives house and had the hardest time just being there because I felt dirty after defecating.

This may be more along the lines of a medical question but has anyone who douches encountered this issue? When I can’t shit and have to hold it in for more than a day I actually tend to ghost wipe and have complete bowel movements. But I don’t like that heavy feeling of having crap in my gut. I eat mostly vegetables and plant based foods so maybe I’m getting too much fiber?