Frustration..

I get mood switches a lot dunno why I really hate this mood in particular tho I get super frustrated and numb.? And angry? and its..kinda unclear and I legit can't do anything my body my hands just decrease in skill and motivation then I just feel suicidal even my art has been decreasing.. how depressing all I can do is these disgusting doodles..that convey nothin I swear my art used to be better..