idk what to put here but whatever

I hate my life. I'm in highschool, i have parental controls, and i get bullied for it because im the only one that has parents that dont trust me enough to not give me a proper phone. im sick of it. yesterday i threw my phone infront of my dad (mind you he has unresolved anger issues and a ton of family trauma with his dad which i can totally understand but not making an effort to fix it doesnt make matters better actually) and he just went bonkers and destroyed my headphones. actually now that i think of it all of my fights with him have been because of parental controls.

i hate my family. he thinks i will enjoy and appreciate the family more than i do because of parental controls BUT IT DOESNT. IF YOU ARE A PARENT PLEASE DONT GIVE YOUR KID PARENTAL CONTROLS. its sickens me to my stomach when i overhear my dad telling other parents to add parental controls and the next day i see their kid begging them to just give them a couple extra minutes. like if they do something wrong just ground them or punish them but what the hell parental controls takes a toll on your kid i swear. ive seen it with other people and just look at me, you can already tell im a fucking screw up after this whole fucking paragraph peice of writing.

dont even get me started on my mom. shes a paranoid freak, who just worries and worries. she doesnt let me go outside by myself even if im walking around the neighbourhood (which by the way she can check where i am with the parental controls she put). she always worries about me even though she used to beat me the hell up when i was 5-11, she only stopped cause i have panic attacks, and i start collapsing from low iron but its whatever.

dont even get me started on my brother hes a bitch by the way, who fucking cries everytime someone hits him in our martial arts classes. IRONIC ISNT IT?

my parents put a pin code on the TV so that i can (spend more time with them) my parents wont let me take any devices in my room, OR EVEN LET ME GO TO MY ROOM TO SLEEP AFTER A LONG FUCKING NIGHT. but whatever ill move out when i get the chance. sorry this is kinda long but i need to get this off my chest.