FUCK THIS FUCK THIS FUCK THIS FUCK THIS

I am 17, life has fucked me over the last years, it’s hours after New Year’s Eve and I’m crying already, I feel shit, I feel unworthy of love, unworthy of anything, I feel ugly as fuck, I feel like the weird kid no one wants to be, I feel like someone who people think about like “damn I’m so happy that I’m not him” I have had enough, I want to feel loved.

I feel hopeless like life has nothing more in store for me, I have been heartbroken, always this unrequited love, always the “yeah he’s only a friend” well maybe I would like something more than a friend? why can’t I be loved..

EDIT : Wow I never would have thought this would have gotten so many comments, thank you all for the support, thank you for some harsh comments aswell, its what I needed to hear. :)