Vent post!

My husband left today for deployment for full year. I don't even know how to handle myself right now. I've been trying to prepare for this for 8 months and it's not any better. I don't know anyone who has a military SO and I can't really talk to anyone about it. I've been crying all day but at the same time I want to be strong because he's gonna be doing all this hard work and I don't want to be a distraction for him or a worry. This just really sucks right now and thinking about a whole year of this is awful.