23, stuck in an abusive home because no one will hire me. [very self pitying rant which i will probably regret after calming down]

I thought that by now id have moved out and had my own life by now. I’ve been a NEET for over a year now and its destroying me. My own parents crossed a line they cant go back from - they tried to force me into marrying a stranger 9 years older than me - after they failed they refused to admit what they did, and will keep denying it till they die - its what they’ve always done. This is just the tip of the iceberg with the things they have done to me. I feel like i am living with demons in flesh suits sometimes.

Im more than qualified. I have a law degree with high grades. I don’t have paid work experience as nobody will hire me. However i do have multiple volunteering positions from the past.

But nobody will hire me. I’ve applied for any and every sort of job. I’ve tailored my CV down to a T. I’ve put hours into every cover letter. I’ve made applications where i thought “they’ve got to at least invite me to an interview for this” - these aren’t even just jobs in law. They are jobs in retail, hospitality, admin….literally anything and everything. Whatever advice people give me about my CV or application, I have already done it.

I do have a very ethnic name and i did try to apply for a job with a white name, but i was getting stressed incase they would ask to see my right to work documents. I did this because i noticed the only time i got invited to an interview, it was where i had to submit an anonymous CV. So I wonder if that had anything to do with it?? :/

People are happy to have me work for free as a volunteer or an intern but nobody wants to fucking pay me. Im starting an unpaid internship course soon. And while it will give me some experience i doubt anyone will hire me to get paid. Its so fucking hard.

Its killing me. I always told myself growing up that id make it out of here but here i am at 23. Its like i was always born just in time for some bullshit. I don’t want to live anymore - i just don’t see the point.