too old to be a virgin

I'm 26 Female. I'm a virgin, but I masturbate almost everyday

I never felt pleasure while touching myself only when I orgasm is when I feel it. I mean, I see in movies or porn how women looks like they are enjoying themselves when they masturbate, and I'm just waiting for that short moment of bliss when I orgasm.

idk if that's normal or not. also tried penetration with toys too, bc I only stimulate my clit, but I don't feel anything. It just feels like something inside me.

I'm scared when I finally do it with someone, I won't feel anything, and I or my partner gets dissappointed.

Is it all in the foreplay? man, this is just sad lmao

edit: if you're planning to dm me, I'm ugly asf so, proceed with caution LMAO