i have a crush on a gay guy

I'm a closeted trans man and I've been talking with this guy who I'm pretty sure is gay (via 'being in the closet' jokes that we made together combined with other factors). We're not "talking", we're not even good friends, we just see each other for a few hours everyday. I don't think I've ever had a real and genuine crush on someone until this guy. He's funny and we have the same sense of humor, he's nice and has pretty good friends around him, and he's even pretty cute.

Unfortunately, since I'm closeted and will probably stay that way for a few more years, I have literally no chance with him, especially considering I know the exact last day we'll (likely) ever see each other again. It really sucks, because I could genuinely see myself having a good and nice relationship with this guy, even if it's just a boyfriend thing and never goes anywhere else.

But at this point, I've accepted that I'll need to get over my feelings and just forget about him. It's sad, but I don't see myself coming out to him before that "last day", if ever.

update: he’s transphobic. completely uninterested now.