The narrative that women get laid by just 'snapping their fingers' makes me sick.

I'm 25F and still a virgin. I've spent my entire life chasing a dream that involves studying day and night inside four walls - never having the chance to mingle. I don't regret my academic choices for they're already bearing fruit. But it stings when I see others in love.

I'm 5'8, pretty fit and my hobbies are attending concerts, gaming on PC and watching street races.

That said, when I'm out with my friends, I never get asked for my number or socials; even if I start the conversation and make sure to smile. In fact, I'm the one men like the least based on height. I don't mind shorter guys, chubbier guys, guys with glasses. But they do mind me. My friends walk away with dudes while I guard their drinks.

And no, I'm not a prude. I know what desire feels like. I just can't act on it.

I'm so lonely I've been on therapy about it for years. Never held a boy's hands, never kissed someone I fancied. But online, I can't win a single argument against men who claim we have it easy as "females" because they'll just hit me with misogyny and assumptions of me being a "slut".

If gorgeous influencers online can't get a man, what makes you think I can? What the fuck?

I would be out with my boyfriend (and not on Reddit) if that was the case.

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