I've accepted I'm going to be single forever 🥲 (Vent)

I'm a 29F. I recently found my faith. One of the first things I said is I'm now abstinent until marriage. That has eliminated SO MANY opportunities for relationships because I don't think there are men in my city (NYC) who would be ok with that. Especially since I wouldn't just jump into a marriage. I would need to get to know the person for a year or two first.

But I also have the plight of not wanting to have children of my own. (Though if I were to get pregnant, I would never abort.) I have a desire to be a foster parent. I was in foster care and currently work in child welfare and know how needed loving foster parents are. I think this eliminates the few potential mates left as most Christian men want to start a family with intention one day.

I think the amount of abstinent until marriage, God-fearing, AND childfree men is zero 😭😂 So that, in addition to having finally given up partaking in self-pleasure, has me knowing I'm going to live a life with no romantic connection and no forms of sexual pleasure for the rest of my life. It sucks. But I hope it'll get easier the old I get. I just pray that this loneliness doesn't cause me to backslide back into sin.