Coping with feeling botched

Hey guys,

I had top surgery a month and a half ago and have started to heal only recently. I’m very much on the right track to full recovery - will be getting out of my compression vest soon, the scabs are falling off, etc - but I can’t help feeling botched. My chest doesn’t look fine. It’s tired, it’s swollen, it’s asymmetrical, it has this raw feel to it. I am on the verge of a mental breakdown every day. You only get one chance to get top surgery and I feel as if I’ve blown mine due to a few mistakes on the part of the surgeons. I am terrified that it’s always going to look like this.