My last hope

Im starting Spravato this week. Things are... bad. They have been very bad for a long while now. I lost my best friend to suicide 2 years ago and I know mental health is the great depression of our era. I have CPTSD, severe depression, extreme despair and total apathy and anhedonia. Spravato/Ketamine is my last hope. I've been praying to my best friend and the universe that this will be second act. Any stories you can share about your amazing journey to happiness, meaning and connection would be deeply welcome.