This Will End hits hard…

Hey, I’m new here but I’ve been listening to the Oh Hellos for years.

I love how at some of the lowest points of my life I’ve been able to discover a song by them that helps me get through.

"No I am not afraid to die, it’s ever breath that comes before."

I’ll do my best to not overshare but I have been experiencing some of the most intense loneliness I’ve ever felt. I have a desire to find my person, and get married. But as someone teetering on the edge of 30 it has felt like life is passing me by.

"Heartache I’ve heard is apart of life. And I have broken more and more. I can hope how this Will end. With every line a comedy."

I’ve been led on three times over after connecting with someone that I genuinely believed had a connection with. A week later they’ve decided they’re not ready for a relationship. I don’t blame them. But it’s slowly are away at me. And ultimately makes me feel foolish for diving headfirst.

"And suffering is all there is to gain in life. Then what is all this waiting for?"

I am a Christian. I know that God's has someone designed just for me out there. But it’s the constant waiting and the hope that something better will come has caused me so much pain. The longing, the waiting, the desire to connect all without being able to.

"I will wait for this to end. The back and forth, the battery. For you at last to comprehend the kind of love of which I speak."

I love, and I love hard. And one day I know I will find someone to fill the hole in my heart and will do this same. This will end. And it won’t be in comedy or tragedy. I’m worth so much more.

Thanks for reading my ramblings!