The United States is such a dystopian country. Why was I comforting small children while we were in lockdown because of some crazy with a gun?

It’s so fucked up and I hate it. Why. Why are we like this? Why do we not want better? These are literally babies just wanting to learn and they have to be scared to get killed at school. Why do I have to be worried I’ll get killed at work? I signed up to teach kids to read and write, not be fodder because we love guns more than anything else on this planet? I hate it. I wish there would be change but there never will be.