I hate this so much I want a robot jaw

Anyone else wish they could get their jaw cut off and replaced with a robotic jaw? I'm so tired of this, I broke my jaw in six places and now I have to live with this deep discomfort for the rest of my life. Thinking about seeing as many doctors as I can and begging them for a morphine or valium prescription until one of them concedes. I could talk so much more easily when I was on morphine in the hospital. This never ending tension in my jaw is killer as well. I've used adult toy vibrators to help massage my jaw and almond oil mixed with a little ginger oil and japanese peppermint oil, sometimes even some lavender oil. It kinda helps when it is really bad but is not a good long term solution. I NEED meds. I want to tear my jaw off just to feel the complete release of muscle tension, it would be heavenly. I think the one things that kinda helps is that I am partially dissociated from my jaw most of the time. Like I'm not even fully in my body to feel the annoying pain. That was something I learned to do in the hospital was dissociate heavily from my body to avoid feeling the pain. You ever hurt yourself somewhere else on your body to distract from a more annoying pain somewhere else? I just want to punch myself because it would feel better than the pain in my injuries. Hell I bet punching myself in the jaw would feel good, it would be like knocking the tension out my jaw muscles. I wonder if acupuncture would work? Like getting one of those supper thin needles pushed into the muscle, would that help? I bet it would feel good regardless.