i deserve pain

ok so i took 10 grams of paracetamol like 5 hours ago and at first i was terrified but now i feel like i fucking deserve it

i realised a person i really looked up to blocked me

i feel so hurt. i really liked them and they seemed to like me

now i think whatever pain im gonna get is fucking deserved

god i feel like shit. i wish i was someone who wasn't hated. :(