No Hope // Part 3

My heart is a broke, can I have some glue?

My hope is dead like my self. My mind already is gone my body just needs to follow. Everyday offing myself seems to be my only best outcome. I can’t keep doing this for my whole life. I’m scared of hell but that is also fading each day I am still living because this pain is so much and slack of purpose, wife left me. No job. Living at my grandparents house right now. My family is going on a vacation trip to Hawaii without me even though they know I just went through hell. I think I’m gonna do it while their on there trip for 3 weeks. I can’t keep doing this