Tooth pain

It’s been none stop brutal pain for a month now and I had an appointment to get it pulled and had to cancel it cause I don’t have enough money. Just trying to get to this newly scheduled appointment in a month from now but I don’t think I can do it. I can’t sleep at night cause I’m in so much pain and when I finally do pass out it usually isn’t for long before I wake up throbbing. I just want to take this pain away but I can’t I don’t have access to anything stronger than weed or ibuprofen and I text everyone I know how I don’t know how much longer I can take this pain and nobody understands how bad it really is I have been contemplating cutting myself which I haven’t done in 3+ years now. But there’s another part of me that’s like let’s skip all the drama and just end it all now. Idk. Sometimes I wanna get in my car and just run away from everything but then my bf and roommate who use my car to get to work wouldn’t have a way to work and I basically only exist to benefit others by helping them nobody helps me. I’m just so tired. We did a Halloween party last night and ended up 2 hours late only there for like 15 min before it ended and I’m just mad at the world and everyone involved cause we drove 4 hours total and they’re in the back seat falling asleep when I wanna party cause I don’t know how much longer I can keep myself alive. And now today it’s all making me very very depressed and hopeless. I just wish I had something to make this pain go away. I just tried to sleep for 3 hours and couldn’t just laid there for 3 fucking hours.