How to not kill myself

I can’t feel happy. I just can feel miserable sad and unsatisfied Like im in danger the whole time Guys I can’t live with this I just wish my life ends I just wish it wasn’t prevented in my religion I really don’t wanna go on i don’t wanna go to uni i don’t wanna commit to anything I just wanna stay in my room live a little life I hate having to live in a certain way that makes me feel bad if im not following the track. Guys Please help me I don’t feel alive anymore i cry at the most random times and I can’t sleep I feel like i need someone to reassure me the whole time And i need to feel free This is so hard it’s eating me alive and idk what to do