I tired of trying

I feel like my life is just some stupid joke. Born in doshit country that literally can't leave without sacrificing everything. Tried being good at swimming, put a lot of effort, ppl say I'm not good enough to continue. Tried chess, literally same thing. Tried editing, I get decent views but someone else just cuts gameplay and gets 10 times more on same game. I can't even explain how hopeless I feel.

Edit: forgot to add I trying to be a good dancer. Video of me dancing spreads around school and almost everyone starts bullying me