Give me a reason to live please..

I don't have any friends, they all betrayed me. My family is a mess. My relationship is making me miserable. My job is draining me mentally and emotionally. I don't trust people. I don't find anything enjoyable now even games, working out and movies that I love before. I lost my passion on my hobbies. I don't smile anymore, I wear my fake smile when I face people. When I'm alone, my heart won't just stop hurting. I want it to stop.

I have already recorded myself in case I will do the job.