I feel like we’re all doomed

This job has opened my eyes to a reality that most people are either unaware of, or won’t accept. I’ve been subbing for a little under 2 years, and I’ve long termed for about 12 months in various classes. During these last two years, I have become very numb to my job, no longer enjoying it, as I feel it is all a major waste of my time.

The kids do not want to learn. In every class I teach, behavior issues are rampant. Rather than one or two disruptive kids, I usually get 10-12. A majority of children ranging from first to 8th grade are unable to read, much less write simple sentences. They doze off, talk, can’t stay in their seats, and are incredibly disrespectful. The only way I can get them to listen is by being “the cool sub”, but I don’t want to do that as they are more likely to see what they can get away with.

It’s so frustrating to know that no matter how long I spend planning my own lessons, explaining concepts in a variety of ways, and giving the same directions over and over, that it’s ultimately a waste of my time. Does anyone else feel this way? I love interacting with the kids, but it’s depressing knowing the direction we’re heading if schools don’t ensure that their students are doing what they’re supposed to do, and if parents don’t start properly parenting.