Anyone else can’t relate to “doll” culture?

Egg cracked relatively recently. I am meeting other straight trans women in the queer scene of my city. They are the sweetest, beautiful and supportive girls but I feel out of place. A lot of the girls seem to have oversexualized themselves turned themselves into a human sex toy in service of men and it’s intimidating. I aspire to be the girl you’d find in a cafe reading or working. Simple. Don’t get me wrong I am sexual too, and in raves I fem it up too. But It just feels intimidating.

Idek why I am like this I was a slut when I tried to be a gay man but now as a trans girl I am turning into a librarian lol.