finding my type
I did a post like that way earlier but this time I really did try to be as honest and objective as possible so here are what I think are my most relevant traits, so if u got the energy type me :
I think I'm good at observing objective reality, being objective.
If I had to choose a motto to describe myself it would be something like : "my peace can never be too solidified"
I'm not easily satisfied in any areas, I'm very perfectionist in every single area of my life, things just need to be perfect because why not choose perfect over non-perfect, I'm just very entertained by perfection & excellence & complexity and challenges.
I believe I thrive in competitive environments, I'm very competitive and I enjoy competitive stuff I find them entertaining and satisfying, and I care a lot about winning but not enough that I become neurotic about it, again it's more a fun to me but there's also a thing of like defending my identity.
I actually prioritized self-preservation more times in my life than I did kindness or positivity and I didn't necessarily felt bad about it because when I feel correct and like i'm doing the most efficient thing I feel justified enough, And I can back up my justification with arguments in terms of ethics of why im doing this or not doing that, in general in terms of ethics i'm rather solid on what I consider to be ethical or not, on my intentions, on why I choose to act this way or not and it's very independent of what others believe is ethical mostly to prioritize efficiency, so I naturally gave myself space to question all that.
Even though I'm pragmatic and logic based in my decisions (I rarely make decisions based on emotional impulses) I actually allow myself to feel as much as I can and I enjoy the entire sentimental aspect of life, I like exploring my feelings, I like sentimentality, I like finding outlets to express them in novel ways, I like when things inspire me or move me into a specific emotional state, I like feeling good about myself, I'm connected to my own desires and agendas and dreams and I don't lose sight of them or who I am.
I care a lot about entertainment and like fun and motion, I like movement in my life mostly upwards always doing more always dreaming bigger always something new or challenging and positive like more more more, I enjoy novelty and innovation and fun for the sake of it, I like spectacular, I like activities.
Productivity is like second nature to me, I don't talk about it because it something that comes very naturally, I allow my big desires to rise and then the goal part of it is rather simple to me, I don't really think about it, it's very intuitive what step I need to take to get what I want so I don't micro manage myself in that matter and volition and passion just come naturally too, is it beneficial, is it sustainable, is it profitable are questions that arise very natully to me and I have fun with logistics.
If I had to choose an overarching theme for my life it would be "entertainment" for sure, I'm so eager for entertainment that I'm very polyvalent but it's mostly channeled through "intellectual fun" and like purposefully putting myself in the pursuit of long terms complete complex goals to keep me engage.
My favorite quote is "the one who laughs last laugh better" because I feel like it represents tons of situations where a lot of people did not understand my actions and projected their confusion onto me while I was actually following a vision I had for myself and when it comes to future gain I'm rather extremely certain and can sacrifice stability and reability to invest on a path I believe is more profitable on the long run, I just have an air of certainty that I really enjoy about myself.
I like beauty and feeling attractive and well dressed and confident.
I for sure have a duality and like a specific image that I put onto the world more intense and confident and "bossy" passionate while I'm home and internally lets say I'm more chill and i don't like that term but "nerdy" and like i said in another post gamifying stuff and detached/relaxed, calm.
I'm rather extremely energetic both physically and mentally and I spend tons of energy outward I rarely need to recharge or "save energy" quite the opposite I have so much energy I have to find somewhere to channel it.