[Acne] how do i stop letting acne control my life?

i’m 23F and recently started breaking out a lot last year when i decided to try out a bunch of new skincare products. flash forward to 2024 my skin is the worse its ever looked and my confidence has never been lower. i can’t even leave my house without feeling like everyone around me is thinking how ugly i look. i don’t want to get a job, go on dates, hang out with friends, its literally ruining my life.

My current routine is:

Peach and Lily Ginger Melt Oil Cleanser (PM)

Naturium Niacinamide Cleansing Gelee 3% (AM and PM)

Cosrx Hyaluronic Acid Hydra Power Essence (AM and PM)

Cocokind Ceramide Barrier Serum (AM and PM)

Differin Adapalene Gel 0.1% (3x week) (PM)

Purito Oats In Calming Gel Cream (AM and PM)

i’ve been using adapalene for about two weeks and the purging process has been so difficult on my self esteem. my skin is so textured, i have tons of acne scars, dark/red spots, and i feel like my skin looks a bit dull now. i’m not sure if i should either switch to a gentler retinol or just stop it all together.

does it ever get better? and does anyone have any tips on how to still feel beautiful even with acne scars/textured skin?