enjoy being alone but feel lonely?

18f. ive alw been an introverted fella, and have a nonchalant and neutral personality(at least thts what ppl say). ok im quite boring actl.

i like cycling, hiking, nature stuff, and started to cook for myself more often whereas my frndgrp like those popmart/labubu trend type things, obsessed w having a bf, petty ahh gossips.

i had a quite a few 'no substance' friendships. i have a solid friend grp in poly and get along well w the most of my classmates. but we dont text unless needed, we dont hang out other thn the occasional "wna have lunch after school." had a big frndgrp in s4 but it fell apart and i only keep in contact with 1 one of them now. i also keep in contact with a childhood frnd of 15yrs. but we only text once in a while as we are at diff stages of our lives.

as ive grown older, i found comfort in being on my own. hell i even prefer going out alone since i can do, eat, spend whatever i want. i dont have to accommodate to others. i enjoy the peace and quiet. drama free life (esp as a stdnt), live as i pls

however, for some reason, i just cant seem to shake the feeling of being lonely esp when night hits and i start to overthink. has anyone felt this befr?