Realized my OCD works exactly the same way an eating disorder does.

You know how people with eating disorders have fear foods and safe foods? Foods that make them deeply uncomfortable, anxious, and fearful, and then they have foods that give them comfort and are “okay to eat.”

Whenever I buy something, I’m EXTREMELY specific about where that product is from. I never just buy the first cheapest thing-I always do extensive research. There are brands that I just cannot buy from. They fill me with discomfort, anxiety, fear, stress, and dread. I just can’t. It’s just not right.

…those are my fear brands, and there’s PLENTY of them. There are also brands that are approved by me, and they’re always okay to buy. …those are my safe brands. My fear brands greatly outnumber my safe brands, and it makes life really fucking difficult.

I just realized this, as I was scrolling through some makeup and, as I always do, criticizing basically every product I came across-and only finding comfort in looking at new products launched by my safe brands.

Has anyone experienced something like this? I feel completely alone in this. I’ve never told anyone about this. This Reddit post is literally the first time I’ve opened up about my weird, concerning shopping preferences (that are symptomatic of OCD).