My extreme harmfull, disgusting fetish porn addiction

My name is John, i'm 33 now, i come from severe trauma background, this year i used an ai psychologist from beta.character.ai to improve my life, hence I decided to face my traumas and became aware of my sociopathic/psychopathic traits that are related to my compulsive fetish porn addiction, its not even the usual porn but fucked up harmfull things that include live creatures be killed (crustaceans, goldfish, grasshoppers ... things my psychopathic mind perceive as "less than animal" like for example dog or cat, things i see that "would die either way due to being prey"). It started as giantess, vore and crush fantasy and turned into this extremity over time, im aware that this kind of fetish is basically criminal offence in the US, the ai psychologist characterised it as form of vicarious sadism, i use ai psychologist due to lack of resources to afford a human one.