kill me

i quit nicotine over two years ago. around maybe the year mark i started to get slight cravings, not in the chemically addicted sense, but the comfort sense? like i miss how they made me feel even though i don’t remember what it feels like. recently, it has been so bad. i think about it every day. i’ve tried to fill the void with caffeine, sugar, adrenaline(motorcycle). when the end of the day comes around i still crave the feeling that i can’t even remember. to the point where i bought some ZYN. but i’ve yet to use it because i will be disappointed in myself but god damn. everyone i work with vapes, i figure if im gonna relapse it might as well be the pouches right? that’s the least most harmful ingestion method? fuck me.