I feel like a looser everyday

Yo desh ma jati well off vayeni kei nahune raixa aafu pathethic vaye pachi.

I have wasted almost 6-7 crores of my parents money on dead end business ventures while literally doing nothing about it. I get worked up in the beginning but gradually I loose interest then scrap the whole thing and go back to juat spending it on my friends and partying and what not. I feel like a pathetic looser. But I dont think I am suicidal or anything, I'm just tired and have no self worth at all. My parents are very well off and understanding people so time and again mom dad le saath chai deko chhan. But I keep dissappointing them everytime without fail. I dont know whats wrong with me. They are willing to give me one more chance after my last years disaster. I just dont know what should I do, I dont even know what I am good at. Rant over. Ill just curl myself up in a ball. No replies needed. I just wanted to vent