Does anyone else get paranoid that maybe they were the narcissist or that both of you were narcissists?

I've been reading so much about narcissism lately, and I thought to myself "Hmm, but all of these symptoms could be something that he'd accuse me of as well, so what if I am also a narcissist?", if that makes any sense. I started to question myself and my actions. But then I also thought, I felt a lot empathy for him, even after he betrayed me countless times, I actually loved him and wanted the best for him and still do, so would it be possible for me to be a narcissist as well if I felt those things? But then, what if those feelings that I believe are empathy and true love are just me gaslighting myself BECAUSE I am a narcissist and want to believe I'm the good person? This especially started when I read about narcissists blaming the other person for everything and not taking accountability. I did blame him for the things he did to me, but I also took accountability for my own mistakes and felt genuinely sorry for them, I meant it, but now I'm just questioning everything about myself and feel confused. I mean, I know for a fact that the things he did to me are unforgivable and were cruel, but what if I was also the problem, more than I take accountability for?

Has anyone else had these doubts and been this confused about themselves after thoroughly researching narcissism?